Aftermath

It's 4am and I just got in from some party
Drunk again, phone numbers written on my body
I would call, but if you don't answer the phone I may burn down every inch of this brown stone
Fourteen days go by, I'm better on my feet
Keeping busy, let my vices take the lead
Never thought you'd be the one to walk away
Never thought I'd ever bet someone to stay

Here in the aftermath,
Tears falling down onto my lap where you used to lay your head
I can't sleep in our bed, twin flame you left for dead
And all I know is here, lies the mess you made
I have to pay for your mistakes,
Pick myself up off the floor
Pray one day that I'll know more
Than the sound of slamming doors, aftermath

Three months later and my friends all think I'm fine
I'll cry later just to spare their peace of mind
I'm doing yoga, and I run in my spare time
If I run fast enough I'll chase you out my mind
These days I'm learning love can look a lot of ways
So many years trapped in your rosy-colored eyes
One day I'll miss you, won't be so painful to say
One day I'll let somebody else hold all my days

Here in the aftermath,
Tears falling down onto my lap where you used to lay your head
I can't sleep in our bed, twin flame you left for dead
And all I know is here, lies the mess you made
I have to pay for your mistakes,
Pick myself up off the floor
Pray one day that I'll know more
Than the sound of slamming doors, aftermath

Someday I'll look back, shake my head, and laugh of this crisis in my path, aftermath
I'll be all grown up, all fall in and out of love
In my diary, that's all you will be
Just a memory of my past

In the aftermath,
Tears falling down onto my lap where you used to lay your head
I can't sleep in our bed, twin flame you left for dead
And all I know is here, lies the mess you made
I have to pay for your mistakes,
Pick myself up off the floor
Pray one day that I'll know more
Than the sound of slamming doors, aftermath

You're left in the past
With the old me free at last
I survived my heart intact
I survived your aftermath