[If Just For This Once] Give Me What You've Got (demo)

With these barriers between us,
this difference in time,
the roadblocks set up in my head,
I will break them all if it means
I can hold you just once
before you change your mind.

These inhibitors in me
stop me from doing what I should,
the drugs I stopped taking
should have stayed for good.
Each day without you or them,
I am wrecked, in this constant-
I am wrecked, in a constant state
of anxiety.

DSS Hold Recording: "We are doing our very best to service you..."

And, I need my oral fixation,
the pill on my tongue,
or my lips to yours.
For just this once,
I think it'd be en-
I think it'd be enough,
to feel you deeper
than the playful touch.

For just this once,
can you be my medicine,
my sanity,
my grounding hit?

One punch to the face,
if this isn't what you want,
watch my teeth mingle in the grass
with my blood.

The worms will come up
for the moisture
and drown in me.

For just this once,
I need your hand,

either choking me down,
or holding my own.

Help me whichever way
you see fit,
with a kiss or a hit,
land it on my cheek,
or my lips.

Just give me what I have coming,
and send me into oblivion...

DSS Worker: "...may I have your social security number please?"