Running Sand

Don't sell me no half-truths, the devil is a liar
I was hiding in the back room
My projection wasn't astral
Seeking every answer to the questions I ain't ask you

It ain't fiction if it's factual
Weaving through the past fractals
In the present-future tripping, it's unnatural
It's like a never-ending fall through the wind
Pray a big soft cloud catch you, uh

Or you hit the ground hard
Making promises you can't keep ain't reasoning with God
Tried leaning into loss, it was a dark place
The shadow grew inside the room that I would toss in the heartaches

Too often, two feet and a few options
Either stand still walk or run, who uttering a godsend
Bogged in and bogged down
I let the calm in and calmed down

All that hellish filth about, I couldn't walk around
Eggshell and egret walls
When I was eager to release it all
The door swung closed, heaven knows I didn't see me sleeping in this hall

You born, you live, you die
My mama said "Don't rush it," I can't function with my pride
I cried and cried, I held it in 'til l popped
Progression was my sentence, my reflection was my opp

Conceived, you born, you live, you die
My mama said "Don't rush it," I can't function with my pride
I cried and cried, I held it in 'til l popped
Progression was my sentence, my reflection was my opp

I couldn't haul the weight, my head that weighed a bowling ball
Would often hit the floor or hit the wall
Out the window, I could heed the call
When the tears hit my bloody palms
Defects and flaws, need rest to keep stress up off me

I couldn't figure out what I had taught me
'Cause what I see in me, I seen in Audrey
Anxiety pronounced when I was sitting on the couch smoking
I ain't know I was killing me softly

This song necessary, necessarily it varies
When the pendulum is swinging, it get costly
Move with caution, don't accost me
Laboriously digging for an answer is exhausting

I'ma use my two to carry, not to fight
This arithmetic is scary, it prepared me to ignite
I wrote these memoirs in armor of a knight
Pituitary where my Ori seated, lead me to the light

You born, you live, you die
My mama said "Don't rush it," I can't function with my pride
I cried and cried, I held it in 'til l popped
Progression was my sentence, my reflection was my opp

Conceived, you born, you live, you die
My mama said "Don't rush it," I can't function with my pride
I cried and cried, I held it in 'til l popped
Progression was my sentence, my reflection was my opp