Doubt (Radio Edit)

Uh, I am heaven sent and agnostic
That's what god said
I'm a walkin' giant contradiction
A piece of a synonym
I feel degraded thinkin' not a single person listenin'
My fault I'll take the blame
I can't speak ya language
I ain't down to hang out
I gotta sort my brain out
I said a lot of up in my songs already
But I swear ya ain't seen nothin' yet
It's only the beginning
Only the beginning

Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out
Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out

Uh, feelin' disillusioned
If I had a time machine I know how I'd use it
Boy if I could go back and
Hold up a mirror to my younger self
It would tell a lot like, open your eyes
Take a look at the world, you might be surprised how
What you do and what you say and how you act
May influence the behaviors of the people nearest you
Never had a second thought but always wanna play it cool
The weird kid was recommended to be skippin' grades
The weird kid was givin' IQ test, easy day
Welcome to the academically gifted
I was so pumped 'cause my crush was in this

Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out
Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out

Lookin' back now, I think that boy needed therapy
Socially underdeveloped
It's a miracle he had any friends at all
He was shy, on the spectrum, here's proof
After School Adventures, barely playin' starin' at the clock
Mother would arrive at four forty there to pick him up
But if she a minute late, literally one minute
He would panic, cryin' out
Severe anxiety would manifest itself, uh
Thinkin' that she left him
It wasn't her fault that his inner conscience
Fed him this here terrible perception
Goin' to the store, he was scared to be abandoned
All in his head though, he was brought up by the greatest parents

Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out
Uh, pilin' up, it's the doubt I be on about
Not good enough and I'm so close to backin' down
Never givin' up until I do, that's a common route
Nah, I'll be a round a little longer, I'ma stick it out