Self Vindication

Maybe I'm surprised by my habituation
Maybe I shouldn't be thinking
About whether I'm thinking about thinking
Maybe I'm a sucker for perfectionism
And I'm only a move away

Paralysed inside
With an imperfect pride
I'm pinned by a touch move
And it's eating all my time

I'll save my excuses
And I'll show that I've got what it takes
I'm not what you say

I could just fall on my side
I could just accept I'll die
(Go on and pick it up
In these narrow halls En Passant)

Promote me to glory
(I don't want to sing the same old story)
I don't wanna sing of self-vindication

So I confess that I want less than 4D chess here in this mess
So drop your best and the pieces from your fingertips

'Cause you're alive and polished outside
But know you can't live in this lie forever
(Throw away your disguise and show your cracks inside)
Just let your pride splinter inside and let the colours fall over you

It's a relief to know
You're falling for overuse
(Come on just call a truce between me and you)

It's a relief to know
Your perfect ego can come loose

So bring your double attack
I'll take my chances with my bare king
It's my turn now to keep us here

These steps keep crushing me
Crossed and diagonally
Kept here in check for free
No castle for safety

I may be worried here
I can't deny it
But self-vindication aside
I'd rather fight than hide

It's a relief to know
You're falling for overuse
(Come on just call a truce between me and you)

It's a relief to know
Your perfect ego can come loose

No I don't wanna sing about this self-vindication
(Throw away your disguise
And show your cracks inside)