Fever Dream

Was it all just a fever dream?
Caught up in a blood orange haze
And my mind stuck in a silly craze
Cause for you, I'd go out in the freezing rain
Just to catch a 6AM train
And in my moments of misery
I speak your name
Just so I have something to hold on to

Was it all just a fever dream?
A sweltering, oh a summer heat
I open my window, it helps me to breathe
Every gust, flash floods through my skin
Oh, can you feel it?
Oh, feel it too?

But in my dreams you were ugly
With rotting teeth and a balding head
And your arms crossed at your chest
And your ribs still broken from that accident
And your hands a beating red

And you can barely stand to look at me
You can hardly say a word to me
But you say that you don't feel the hurt
Like I do
So nothing's changed
Nothing's changed
Nothing will ever change

It's easy to turn away
It's easy to say
Nothing ever happened here
Nothing ever was
Nothing ever happened here
Nothing ever was
We are nothing at all
And I, I'm nothing at all
But a fool
Who can't stay awake