the freshman

I was once a freshman in a long lost September
Now I have been a freshman as long as I can remember
All my life I did what I was told, I did what I was supposed to
And now I'm on the edge of being too old for everything I wanna do
And then there's you, who I see only in my memory now
The child who I used to be, who I wish to find again somehow

But I was a freshman then
I was a I was a I was a freshman then
I was a freshman then

And now I'm bursting at the seams, and I don't want your apologies
I want the leaves back on the trees, I want the waves back out to sea
I wanna be a freshman again, hang out the back of the car like I did back then
Counting the stars, I never used to run out of them
When I was a freshman
Oh I think I'll be a freshman forever

Did you ever hear the story of the freshman?
They stood still, though time kept moving
They never grew up, they just stayed in their room
And watched their life pass them by without them in it
I can still remember endless July nights in the summer
Dancing like embers, what I wouldn't give just to be her, again

But I was a freshman then
I was a I was a I was a freshman then
I was a freshman then

And now I'm bursting at the seams, and I don't want your apologies
I want the leaves back on the trees, I want the waves back out to sea
I wanna be a freshman again, hang out the back of the car like I did back then
Counting the stars, I never used to run out of them

When I was a freshman
Oh, I think I'll be a freshman forever
In my head, freshman, I think I'll be a freshman forever

The sickness was forever, I was covered in it
It never let me go, and I am buried six feet under by dreams I left up there so long ago
And I am still haunted by the stranger I see in the mirror
The last time I knew her was in a long lost September