Sabotage

For when I'm not alone anymore
Cries unheard, in this embrace
I can't give, what I can't take
A hollow heart is consuming
Cast aside, endless glooming

I know the distress
It comes full circle
When connections are hard to find
I turn the other cheek, pretend it's not there and sabotage my mind

Absence is always louder than I imagined
In this void, I try to thrive in fear
Everyone will be forgotten, when change is near
It's better to learn acceptance before repentance
And for my own survival
I need to destroy denial

Not one soul wants to be here
Not one soul

In the space you vacated, I stumble and stay
How do they find hope, am I in the way?
How do they find love
How do they find strength
In haunting catastrophe

Cries unheard, in this embrace
I can't give, what I can't take
A Hollow heart is consuming
Cast aside, endless glooming

I know the distress
It comes full circle
When connections are hard to find
I turn the other cheek, pretend it's not there and sabotage my mind

Your absence a puzzle, I can't comprehend
You found solutions, I'm left to fend
And it's okay like always 'cause no one cares to deep

Turn the other way, to what's left of me
And I understand now, this void was everything

Out of sight, out of mind is what I like
Out of sight, out of mind is what I find
Good enough to tell myself lies