Confessions

Surroundings are quiet
But the mind keeps racing
Can't force them to silence
Anxiety's leading
Mm

And today I have opened the vault
Shared things I've never before
If I get hurt now, it's my own fault—
Stripped to the core, guess I'm done hiding now

Dipping my feet in the water
Then the wave comes and pulls me down
Had the words all laid out for ya
Then we sit down and pass every guard
I put on

And how do I know how to process this?
Been losing my mind, at work I can't concentrate
It's better at night—
Writing this song is helping me to navigate

I promised myself to be honest
(honest)
And so, I was
All these times I said, "Yes, I've got this!"
(I got this)
I prayed that I did

And it's not what I intended—
To cry for you without end, but
I need you to know that I'm tired
Of the need to be burned
Instead of leaving the fire

Fire
Fire
Fire

Empty moments consume me
Trying to cope with myself
Knife over skin—it won't break me
Still, I said nothing to anyone else

I've been feeling so many emotions
Can't untangle the mess and decode them
Is this what my 20s are for then?
To wish I had you in my corner!?
I wish I had you in my corner!

I'm scared of the power you hold
Since there's nothing left of me I haven't told
Mean thoughts returning—I wish we could talk
So close in range, but too far to make that call

Gave you every weapon against me
In these hours of brutal confessing
And what if you think that I'm crazy?
Always in doubt about all that you've said to me

I promised myself to be honest
(honest)
And so, I was
It's hard to want something you can't have
Feeling like Alice in Wonderland
Down the rabbit hole I went

And it's not what I intended—
To cry for you without end, but
I need you to know that I'm tired
Of the need to be burned
Instead of leaving the fire

Fire
Fire
Fire

Fire (Fire)
Fire (Fire)
Fire (Fire)
Fire (Fire)

You said, "I like you."
I almost bought it
Not sure where we stand now—
Have I been too honest?