From A Man's Perspective

I just wanna be with you tonight
I just wanna be with you
I just wanna be with you tonight
I just wanna be with you

(I just wanna be with you tonight)
(I just wanna be with you)
(I just wanna be with you tonight)
(I just wanna be with you)

I thought we were forever, that's was a mistake
You wrote it down in pencil, guess it got erased
Drawin' on my weakness, look what you create
A masterpiece of everything you taught yourself to hate

I had to log off, your passwords changed
You always tried to run, I wasn't down to chase
Your trauma made you numb, I tried to give you faith
You took my kindness and threw it right back in my face

Ashamed to say I loved you, and it hurts me 'cause I actually tried
Your truth was based off of lies
Your love was conditional and mine
Forgave you multiple times

That's why I had to finally walk away
It hurt me to leave, but was killin' me to stay
The story of my life
This chapter and page is gettin' ripped out and thrown in emotional flames

To be honest I don't hate you, this my only way to grieve
What you want isn't always what you need
I remember days I'd beg, and I'd plead for you to just calm down and provide me with peace
Your words used to hurt me, they would bring me to my knees
Called me pathetic, trash, weak
So, I got strong, got back on my feet
Picked you up off the sidewalk, through you back to the streets

I don't wanna talk about those times that you lied
Don't wanna talk about those times that I cried
Don't want to talk about those times you denied all the truths that I spewed that I knew deep inside
The pressure I was feelin' that was right up to my neck
The anxiety depression that was weighin' on my chest
The constant allegations, the blatant disrespect
The time that I lost, or the money that I spent

I was goin' crazy, I was a shell of a man
Trapped in your cage, lost in your maze
Blinded by love, addicted to the pain
The highs and the lows, the storm and the rain

I started therapy to cope, because you drove me insane
Gassed me right up, then emptied my tank
So, don't you try to spin the block when you see I'm doin' great
Or that I'm happy, or I got another woman in your place

Because I gave you too many chances to understand
That pain sounds different when it's comin' from a man
We're not allowed to feel, be real, explain, express, and when we do, we lose the upper hand
We only have value based on what we can provide
I spoke your love language, you didn't understand mine
You pushed me to the edge, played like you were blind
And then you blamed all of your actions on your zodiac sign
(I just wanna be with you tonight) never again

I just wanna be with you
I just wanna be with you tonight
I just wanna be with you