Diary Of A Trying Man

I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts
But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside
I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn
I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs
That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives
When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong
And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try"
I'll try, I tried, I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide

21, I was young, dumb, livin', chasin' dreams
Tryna go from a boy to a man
I gave my heart to a pretty little demon who was askin' for the world and a Disney romance
She valued money, not the substance that I had
I was buildin' for the future, but she couldn't understand
That a diamond only shines overtime under pressure that's applied from my disciplined hand

She let me go then she moved away
Said she could do better, and I was a man she could replace
Said I wasn't worth it and the memories that we had made was just wrong time
Wrong place and all a mistake

I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts (I keep tryna move on, girl)
But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside
I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn
I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs (can't turn the radio on)
That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives
When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong
And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try" (I try)
I'll try (I'll try), I tried (I tried), I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide

Now I'm movin' at a different pace
Don't blame me for movin' on because you couldn't wait
You left to find yourself and found out what we had was great
Our cities way too small to act like we ain't never date (never date)

And now you're bangin' on my line, I ain't callin' you back
You used to race all on my mind, now my life's on track
You ain't gon' waste no more of my time, 'cause I'm not that man
You knew from the past that gave you a chance

You used to think that it was all a game
Lookin' back girl, I think that I'm the one to blame
I'm settin' boundaries, I'm not the same
Don't call 'cause I blocked you on everything

And if I ever come across your mind
I hope you think about those late-night drives
And tell yourself I didn't deserve those lies
Those words, those fights, I tried, I tried

I keep tryna move on, I GPS all my thoughts (I keep tryna move on, girl)
But they lead me to places that gon' hurt me inside
I've been tryna stay strong but when the memories spawn
I gotta chase 'em with whiskey 'cause they run on my mind

Can't turn the radio on because they only play songs (can't turn the radio)
That take me back to those days and all those late-night drives
When you'd lay on my arm, tell me what I do wrong
And I would look in your face and say, "But girl I try" (I try)
I'll try (I'll try), I tried (I tried), I tried to be the man that you wanted, but I couldn't provide