This Isn't Who We Are

Got me up all night, drinking this liquor, stupid I know
All the things that we've been through, I'm trying to get through, moving on slow
My head above the waters, it's harder than it seems
And I can't take it any longer, I'm starting to feel weak
It's been weeks since I last saw you, I should've tried but didn't bother
Ego got the best of me but I should be a lot stronger
I'm trying to move onward, 'cause it's no longer
Now I don't got her, I keep thinkin 'bout
I should've called her and stopped her from drifting away
Seconds to days, regretting mistakes
I'm missing your face and when you would laugh
Memories we had but it's in the past
I wish it'd be reversed, I'd give you everything you deserve
Life's becoming a blur, love is something you can't reimburse
Swimming in the deep end, reality's starting to seep in
There's nothing like us, you're the one I wanted to be with
There's no one I can relate to and life's becoming a plateful
The love is gone and maybe it'd be easier to hate you

You say that you don't care, you don't wanna deal with me
You pushed me away but baby I'm not your enemy
I don't wanna go there, I hate when you pressure me
'Cause baby one day I won't have any more energy
I'm sorry for all the fights and all of the lonely nights
But everything you're doing to me ain't right
I'm sorry we fell apart, can we just go back to the start
I hate how we've been, this isn't who we are, who we are no

I'm chasing after a soul I feel like I sold, where did it go
I should've played my role, keep it controlled, where did I go
I can't find myself
I'm living so lost and where is my cause
I'm trying to do well
This love doesn't cost but I'm so exhausted
Please take the pain away, nothing could save the day
I can't complain, I need to make a change
And I tried erasing your name away
How does a love so amazing just fade away
It's been overdue for awhile
I should hit you up and see what's been up, how you doing right now
'Cause I've been missing that beautiful smile
What am I doing, I should keep moving
Damn, why am I looking back
I need to relax, leave it in the past
Damn, what am I looking at
It's so annoying, I can't control it, thinking 'bout us, like drinking a poison
It's really killing me, how should I deal with it, trying to be real with it, it's really pointless
It's really pointless, stop moping about it, stop being a bitch
Get back to my focus, stop being hopeless, start being open, go out and live
There's no one I can relate to, how did I get so hateful
The love is gone, the love is gone, it's easier to hate you

You say that you don't care, you don't wanna deal with me
You pushed me away but baby I'm not your enemy
I don't wanna go there, I hate when you pressure me
'Cause baby one day I won't have any more energy
I'm sorry for all the fights and all of the lonely nights
But everything you're doing to me ain't right
I'm sorry we fell apart, can we just go back to the start
I hate how we've been, this isn't who we are, who we are no

I promised myself I would never give in but here I am
Missing it all, wishing it didn't have to end no
And you should know, wherever I go
I'm reminded of us and what we had
I gave you all of my love and now you're gone
Why'd you have to leave

You say that you don't care, you don't wanna deal with me
You pushed me away but baby I'm not your enemy
I don't wanna go there, I hate when you pressure me
'Cause baby one day I won't have any more energy
I'm sorry for all the fights and all of the lonely nights
But everything you're doing to me ain't right
I'm sorry we fell apart, can we just go back to the start
I hate how we've been, this isn't who we are, who we are no

You are my everything
You meant the world to me