Hold Up

HOLD UP (Original)

If I hold up
If I lean strong against the wind
When the breeze blows me down
Upon my back
And I fight upright again

If I hold up
If I smile wide when they offend
If I go against the grain enough I know
It will one day soon smoothen
If I hold up

And it's more than just a problem
And it's more than just a whim
I can see you never cared about me
Even though you say you did

I'm not impressed by those with power
I'm not impressed by those who grin
When I hold up
When I hold up
If I hold up

Now if I hold up
I'm gonna let some light come in
I'm gonna hold it by its throat
And ask
Where it wants me to begin

If I hold up
When my fabric is wearing thin
When I'm hanging by the thread
I let tangle up in competence
If I hold up

I'm gonna scratch and claw for solace
I'm gonna let forgiveness in
I'm gonna try to let it hold me
I'm gonna try to let it win

Cause I don't want to carry grudges
But I feel I'm forced to live under them
Until I hold up
Until I hold up

And I'm best when I'm a martyr
But there is no one following
Until I hold up
If I hold up
If I hold up