The Mothership

I am holding myself
Together with duct tape
Unloading myself upon you
Like the mothership
Having finally blown the
Candy coating over my
Nuclear family to bits
And things are exploding
In our faces

These fires have really been
Burning us lately
I am hoping for midnight
In a half a minute
And wishing for my animosity
To leave my body
And give me some privacy

Who am I
To bring you along
For this ride
Have you been
Dying inside?
Like I have
Or maybe you are
As confused as I am
And maybe the flame
Is as hot for you
As it is for me
But I find that hard to believe
When you are fucking crazy

I am holding myself
Together with duct tape
And wishing I could
Tie myself down with
A marijuana cigarette
How many nights
Will I be plagued
With this circular thinking
In the darkness?

I lost count
About two years
After the baby died
I know my mother
Will never stop crying
And she probably
Never will forgive me for
Being alive
Yeah, it probably
Should have been me who died

But I just keep on living and living
And living and living
When you are fucking crazy
You are fucking crazy

Who am I
To bring you
Along for this ride
Have you been
Dying inside
Like I have?
Or maybe you are
As confused as I am
And maybe the flame
Is as hot for you
As it is for me

But I find that hard to believe
It's hard for me to believe
When you are fucking crazy
You are fucking crazy

And things are exploding in our faces...