How Does It Feel

How does it feel, when they don't believe anything you say?
Always, got to show and prove yourself every single day
Man, this ain't living, nothing but drama all through the week
And if they don't respect my words, why they want me to speak?
I'm feeling worse, even though I put my family first
I'm shedding tears 'cause I feel as if I'm headed to the dirt
Ghetto on me, stressed out, mama buried ain't dead
Ain't got no partners 'cause my partners put a price on my head

Have you ever told a lie to make the drama stop?
Watch the world you love turn against you no more family problems
How does it feel to be the black sheep?
How does it feel to victimize yourself for one time and evermore at the back keep
And roses on the dresser bad, liquor approaching fast
Sitting around, waiting on death to come, watching time pass
My life, my life, falls under the wicked and shife
I wonder where I got to sleep tonight, nigga how does it feel?

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops (how does it feel?)
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (my nigga how does it feel?)

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (uh-huh, uh-huh)

I could of sworn I wasn't the only person on this earth
But it seems, that I've been one deep ever since the day of my birth
I'm sick and tired of being lonely in this crooked land
People think I'm tripping 'cause of my facial expressions
But they don't understand 24 years old and use to frowning daily
Trying to figure out who was the friend, and who was the foe
You know it's 'bout to drive me crazy mama

Tell Jesus I can't handle the pressure
Look at the way they do me down here, my vision is Z-Ro on the stretcher
Can't I bleed in peace, won't y'all leave me alone
Like Makavelli I close my eyes and picture home
Not a Mo City block but a place that ain't no glocks, and it ain't no sin
No longer watching my back for the retaliation
How does it feel to wish that you was dead, I can
Answer that 'cause many of nights my pistol's to my head
But I'm so scared, my life, my life, 360 degrees
Of being neglected stressing enemies nigga tell me how does it feel?

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops (how does it feel?)
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (my nigga how does it feel?)

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops (how does it feel?)
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (uh-huh, uh-huh), how does it feel?

When these bustas try to take yo' life?
Lord knows I don't wanna pull my .45
But see I must survive, nigga don't make me use my tool
Get some of that bomb green from Tom 'fore I lose my cool
How can I make it to the top I'm like a crab in a bucket
They got me hostile, I see my pistol, grab it and bust it
Nigga get off me, I don't love not one of y'all
I'm comin' for what ya owe me and killin' every one of y'all

Call me Caesar, kill them while they sleepin'
I'm grim reapin' busta never saw me comin' left him with his blood seepin'
I'm a soldier, recognize the sign of the times
It's either kill or be killed up in this stony life of mine
Can you feel it? The odds are up against a real nigga
How does it feel to see my blood spill my nigga?
My life, my life, feel like I'm runnin' out of time
'Til it's over catch me runnin' with my nine, how does it feel?

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops (how does it feel?)
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (my nigga how does it feel?)

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops (how does it feel?)
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (uh-huh, uh-huh), how does it feel?

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (my nigga how does it feel?)

When you can't make the pain stop
Walking in the rain so your tears can blend in with the rain drops
When your kin people done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (uh-huh, uh-huh)