Sleeping With the Enemy (feat. Mercenary)

I feel agoraphobic but reluctantly stay on course
In this labyrinth of thorns, there is no way around it
Smell Agent Orange in this place I go
And I may regret it, but I have to do what makes me fit
Fake smiles allow me to find my breath
Painted in the fog that was marked at the moment of death
From a recluse, entangled in a spider's web
Why eat halos when the fables they write are dead?
Examine all the lines for an indication of the
colors that were there inside another anecdote of the time
Claws grow inside with these inattentive looks
until it changes from irrational anger to schizophrenia
When you're in a cage, you forget how big the world can be.
And when you're always bleeding you forget it's an emergency
It is a slow journey that can lose your quick hold
Questioning the purpose that is embedded in your circuit
And then the water crystallizes,
grows inside your chest to your sickle-cell heart
The world is an authentic made of artificial ties
that were meant to cover gravestones, rainbow technicolor
An angel's letters are freakin 'with my memories
Playing with my sheets because I've been sleeping with the enemy
Under a secret identity,
I try to flee, but she's leaking methamphetamine
Drip drip, lick lick, infect me with diseases
Feed me all your lies until you make me believe
This example is part of lucid dreaming
Or just illusory and did they make you believe it?