Sober Thoughts

A smile from down the hall and I was hooked from the start
Paralyzed with fear, I just looked from afar
I struggle with my words, he makes a move
I just do what I have to do (do what I always do)
Set my feelings aside, I'll swallow my pride
I never put myself first
I'll let him take you home, I'll spend another night alone
This isn't what I want, it's just what I always do

Damn these thin walls, I can hear it all
As he's tangled in your sheets and the headboard hits the wall
And damn these fake friends only looking out for them
As I overhear the words that they were thinking in their heads

And now I'm drinking to get drunk
And I've been drinking for days (drinking for days)
But now I start to sober up to the fact it's all changed
You can't have us both and I've been drinking all alone (all alone)
Because the bottles always here on the nights that you're gone

We're made up of our mistakes
We carry their weight everyday
Maybe you should carry your own
This was never personal
It wasn't up to me
You stood by your choice
I'll stand by mine
You'll never see the way I fell apart inside
At least you have each other
Tell me, what do I have left? (loyalties lie)
The one who said he'd never take sides (he drew the line)

And now I'm drinking to get drunk
And I've been drinking for days (drinking for days)
But now I start to sober up to the fact it's all changed
You can't have us both and I've been drinking all alone (all alone)
Because the bottles always here on the nights that you're gone

This was never personal
This was never personal
This was never personal
This was never personal
I can't help but feel deceived
As he's tangled in your sheets
The walls betray your secret
You know what that means
You can't have us both (you can't have us both)
Now I'll make the choice for you

I pulled you out of the way
Just in time for you to throw me
Under the bus
Make this personal again and I'll tear you to shreds