Remainder

Had the feeling that we were due for bad news
Six months away before we knew
That no good was ever coming through
I burnt down the house for you
I moved my shit out of your room
I kissed my dog goodbye, said, "I guess it's time to move"

My things on the lawn in the heat
September stayed so warm
And your sweat tasted sweet
It's the last time I held you complete
The last family on the street
The only time we meet
You're not alone

But all things in mind
I couldn't be better
Than times that I've denied myself my happiness
And all things considered
I come out the remainder
Left alone without my whole
So where'd you go?

Now I stayed indoors on my throne
And I talk to myself
Pray that you haven't flown
And I'll reap what I have sown
'Cause I'm just a fucked up boy
Who dreams of dying alone

But all things in mind
I couldn't be better
Than times that I've denied myself my happiness
And all things considered
I come out the remainder
Left alone without my whole

But all things in mind
I couldn't be better
Than times that I've denied myself my happiness
And all things considered
I come out the remainder
Left alone without my whole

Moving in on miserable (but all things in mind)
With rings and beds I took for granted (I couldn't be better)
Feels like I am barely here (than times that I've denied)
Seven years that never happened (myself my happiness)

Giving up on loving things (and all things considered)
Except maybe for my new family (I come out the remainder)
Hold myself up for display (left alone without my whole)
Everything just brings me down today