Losing Connection

I know it's not how we planned it
But we played the cards we were handed
Had tricks up your sleeve like some magic
That magic turned in to damage
Had bandanas wrapped like a bandit
Stole my soul at gunpoint, no handed
Just by the glance that you shot at me
It hit me right in my artery
Now it's hard to breathe
Left to write and bleed
I bleed while I write ironically
This pen only spills out red ink
Then it dries and sinks into minds like me
Who write all their feelings on to a page
For all the cold times that are hard to face
For all the lives that I can't erase
Here's a pencil, stencil and trace
Out a new outline for your future lives
Those who hide, disguise their lives
They make it impossible to step inside
Would do anything to never let their hearts collide
The middle of the word believe spells lie
You see deceit, walks a thin line
It goes and find words that's designed
For us to trust in, gets between and hides
Anger is one letter short of danger
Strange is one R short of stranger
In one second friends are strangers
My friend I can't think of nothing stranger

And I can still remember when
Remember when we lost connection

Love & affection, I love the infection
Felt your breath on my neck when I stepped in
Now there must be a storm that has swept in
All of the sudden, we lost all connection
All the colors have blackened
Get a match stick, get it lit quick, grab it
Fasten the bulb back in to the wall
Jiggle the switch, getting nothing at all
You must be lost in the atmosphere
Since that day skies aren't as clear
I must be lost too, anchored in anger
Sank my ship, a statistical sailor
Holding gold in a treasure chest
At the bottom of the ocean losing breath
Hoping its open before I'm swept
Back to the shore where I'm deep in debt
And I ain't sleeping yet
I'm awake and it's pouring, rain outside
My inside ain't foreign, to the tides
That are rising I'm warning, all alive
Wanna survive get soaring, to the skies
Take flight like an eagle
Use your eyes to identify people
Who decide to be deceitful and evil
You'll be surprised who cuts off the signal
I'm getting lost in the riddle
I must admit its one hell of a pickle
I must admit I'm discouraged a little
I've been through sh*t, I've got courage to give ya
I've earned my badge of honor
Shield your heart the past will haunt ya
Yield you never know who will cross ya
A pretty little kitty turned into a monster

One year can be the best and the worst
At the same time be a blessing and a curse
I felt so alive, then I woke up in a hearse
Thought I found Heaven
But I was sleeping in church