Hold You Under (feat. Marcus Bridge)

I've learned a lot about repentance, a lot about my shame
I felt the dark inside me long before it called my name
I thought my spine was stronger, 'til my bones began to break,
from all the weight of never-ending
Hate. Hate what I've done,
When the floodgates are open, and the damage is done
Hate what I've become
The fight forgotten hasn't always been won

I feel the pressure closing in,
it weighs on my mind 'til I start to cave in
Regret is calling out to me, and I'm tired of answering

So sick of searching for a sense of relief
So sick of seeing my conscience as the enemy
So cut me off before it's too late to see
I'll weigh you down 'til you're sinking with me

Forgiveness never seemed so far
Pick at the scabs enough, soon they turn to scars
I was young and idealistic, that was stripped away by time,
And in the end all that was left was
Hate. Hate what I've done
When the floodgates are open, and the damage is done
The clocks won't stop, the race is already run

I feel the pressure closing in,
it weighs on my mind til I start to cave in
Regret is calling out to me, and I'm tired of answering

In a crooked spiral
In a spin that never comes to rest
We turn again, we turn again

In a flame of repentance
We wash away the pain and the regret
We burn again, we burn again

In a crooked spiral
In a spin that never comes to rest
We turn again, we turn again

In a flame of repentance
In a permanent purgatory
We burn again, we burn again

So sick of searching for a sense of relief
So sick of seeing my conscience as the enemy
So cut me off before it's too late to see
I'll weigh you down til you're sinking with me