Goodbye

I sit I'm my room claustrophobic,
as I watch the walls breath succumbing to self pity,
and these voices wont leave.
I got a revolver in my hand with six chambers and they all full,
every bullet contradicts the contemplation of suicide.
I wanna die. So I sit and clinch my bible until my palms sweat, and blister,
cause I hate my sister.
First I'm gonna light a candle in the form of a seance,
and see the light on the wall reflect all this childhood neglect.
I cock the hammer, I let the steel touch my tongue and taste the metal for the first time, I see the faces of my loved ones,
but fuck a note, cause when I do it, I want it to be a mystery, and let them feel the same pain that I felt, this is the remedy.

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

I get on my knees and say a prayer,
I tell god that I cant handle all this pressure,
I wanna kick it up there.
Why should I wanna live? When my mother used to molest me in front of my stepfather,
she beat me and he undressed me, see.
He took my manhood before I became a man, so now I sit here at 16 with this gun in my hand.
Death is the only way out, the murder of myself will show em all the theres a way out,
I cry for my soul.
Depression has taken a toll on my every existence, so when I think of humiliation I cant breathe,
its time to leave.
Cause I'm gone show what you did, for tormenting me as a kid, you raised me, now look what I did

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

I don't wanna die, I wanna breathe again, I don't wanna have to say...

Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide

My soul is slipping away, I don't wanna leave, not in this way