I Don't Call

Your strength could not take leave
To take a tack on flights and family
When I pushed back east, I thought of you
And when I clutched the dust, I thought of you
And realized

I don't know why
We turn to work or drug or worry to fight
The glittered remains of parents passing
I don't know why
We hold our tongues in time of trebled need
But know that I'm yet the obverse side of your thrown coin
I don't call because I can't say love

I wanna know her to better find me
So with eyes on harvest, I collected seeds
Of aunts, addiction stories, foster parents, embraces
I fetched a lot of these
And yet still

I don't know why
She turned to work or drug or worry to fight
The glittered remains of family trying
I don't know why
She held her tongue in time of trebled need
But know I'm yet the obverse side of your flown coin
I don't call because I can't say

There will come a day
Where I will move aside the fitful vine
And I will show you what I try

Oh, there will come a day
Where I will show you how I turned the dirt
And I will show you how she lies

Oh, some day
Well, I will lift a tongue into the phone
And I will tell you

That I don't know why
I turn to work or drug or worry to fight
The glittered remains of parents passing
I don't know why
I hold my tongue in time of trebled need
But know I'm yet the observe side of your thrown coin

I don't call because I can't say
Don't call, I almost can say
I'll call before I can say love