Admitting the Endorphin Addiction

I chase my poison tail
and get so high that voices fail.
I heard that when you in a fucked up space no one can hear you signal help
I tried to set 'em straight
Tell them I self medicate
All they saw's a glitchy video but then I never show my cards
Instead I write for stealth
blah blah blah I cry for help
All this belly-aching's just to say my belly's hurtin after all
It's all endorphins though
Or maybe every Scorpio is predisposed to never feel as cold as the first time they felt a loss

My addiction, my obsession, my admission, my rejection, I insisted, I accepted
My prescription carried us away
carried us away

Pretend I didn't know who smoked up all the mistletoe
you'd really be surprised how innovative I can get when left alone
And once them cravings strike,
I knew I should say goodnight
Want for them endorphins got me saying everything except for that
White knuckle rodeo and failing fills my holy holes
Staring at my phone wondering how endorphins travel via screen
As I feel my withdrawal
I understand them 90's songs
Rap music has ruined me, I always want to loop my favorite part

day to day to day is ground zero I'm 20 years im 20 inches tall
Today today my sky has fallen, I have no resolve

My addiction, my obsession, my admission, my rejection, I insisted, I accepted
My prescription carried me away
carried me away