Second Wind

I feel everyday...
(Driven, struggle, unaccomplished, happiness, scared, nervous, excited, loss, embarrassed, hopeless, trust, worried)
And the one thing that I'm truly thankful for... (hopeful, despair, anger, love, shame, confusion, pity)
Is that... (envy, jealousy, strong)
I know what to expect
I've been here before

If I didn't leave my girl I would have ruined her life
I told her, "Skip town" right before I kissed her goodbye
I could easily lose what little I have left
Stop trying, get left behind, and they could care less
Go over your head
With no permission
Got a couple tattoos and none of 'em finished
Outline homemade, double A, with a pen from a friend
Dodging the chalk kind, if you comprehend

Line I walk is thin
Cockroaches on the bed
Not surprised, not a bit
Typical apartment shit
Boston, I stand alone
Tunnel vision on this shit
Finished product look panoramic though
Wide angle, tripod on my life stable
They watch close while I trip up and I stagger

This is the end result of not taking advice
The end result of saying I'm fine
The end result of a lie

We can't go on like this no more, it's true
I can't go on like this, but I can't go on without you (what to do?)
Two steps behind the living, one in front of the dead
I'll catch up with you later if I catch my second wind
I haven't yet

Had a connection with a woman, we got along
Come to find she only fucks with dudes with strong arms
And mine ain't bad but I guess they ain't up to par
Personality met his match, that's abdominals
If I've learned anything (what?), it's how to take a loss
That and if it's a twist off

Bottles and knowledge of fluid ounces
750 millilitres to drown in
Alcohol by volume, gotten good at counting
Not a good accountant
Was never good with numbers
Bank account is indicative, consistently plummets
Living this life, still ain't got shit to show for it
So far from a chauffeur
Or a showroom floor

Just want to go up North
Cabin in the Adirondack's and go outdoors
Not sure if I'm in need of excitement
As much as I am for fresh air and enlightenment (true)
Home cooked meal, a good book, and a night in
I haven't done that in so long, I'm not sure if I'd like it (damn)
Even if you're not sure what you're looking for
They say you'll know when you find, you'll know when you find it

We can't go on like this no more, it's true
I can't go on like this, but I can't go on without you (what to do?)
Two steps behind the living, one in front of the dead
I'll catch up with you later if I catch my second wind
I haven't yet