Eulogy 95

Restless memories of you were keeping me awake
I called Annalise and told her I thought we needed a break
I could feel her tears across the wire, I left nothing resolved
I just curled up alone and wished I'd not gotten involved
My dreams that night were dark and filled with violence and pain
And it bothers me to know that stuff is somewhere in my brain
And that storm outside is raging still, it might be somewhat worse
I'm not the person to ask, I don't recall what happened first
Something about your head upon my shoulder

In Virginia City where the morning comes too soon
She and I bought matching guitars, but we never got in tune
Still we played them on the sidewalk for the strangers passing by
And we couldn't understand the way we didn't make them cry
A simple act of congress was never gonna hold us back
We were well-disciplined warriors with our horses painted black
And I'm pretty sure the towers of the skyline split in two
When they saw that passage open and the way I fell for you
It was something about your head upon my shoulder
Something about your lips upon my skin
The time is flying, we are growing older
And there ain't no way to change where we have been

We fulfilled each other in the sunny month of June
All the less ambitious people were just racing for the moon
But we knew that truth and beauty would be nowhere to be found
Til they looked inside themselves, in the sky, and in the ground
Oh, your smile was classic literature, your eyes were solar beams
That dug straight into my skull, where they learned all my fears and dreams
And my heart was beating perfectly in time with how you moved
I just laughed and took my socks off, there was nothing left to prove
Something about your head upon my shoulder
Something about your lips upon my skin
The time is flying, we are growing older
And there ain't no way to change where we have been

I heard someone mention the Chicago World's Fair
So I burned my cards and letters, and I chopped off all my hair
Then when you came home, you knew immediately exactly what was wrong
And you minced no words in letting me know where I don't belong
Oh, the silence of your reason and the grace of your defeat
Were like final cruel reminders of your potential for heat
But I knew you weren't right, yeah I think I knew that all along
I just tripped into your whirlwind, I got lost in your song
Something about your head upon my shoulder
Something about your lips upon my skin
The time is flying, we are growing older
And there ain't no way to change where we have been

You know, I've been in train stations, and I've been from sea to sea
And I read Great Expectations -- it's not what I thought it'd be
And I traveled 'round the world trying to find a girl like you
But I gave that up for things that were more possible to do
And now I'm drunk halfway to hell, I can't stand on my legs
And I'm praying to god to kill me please, the way a dog begs
And I know I'd never have the guts to do it for myself
Maybe that's why I approach you now, maybe I need your help
Something about your head upon my shoulder
Something about your lips upon my skin
The time is flying, we are growing older
And there ain't no way to change where we have been

Desperate memories of you are keeping me alive
I'm a shell of who I once was, I'm on automatic drive
I let strangers take my blood and the clothes that I have worn
I'm just curling up inside myself, wishing I'd not been born
How many years must we perform this disappointing play
We already know the ending, there is nothing more to say
All that ever made a difference was your unexpected light
And now even that is fading, dissipating in the night
Something about your head upon my shoulder
Something about your lips upon my skin
The time is flying, we are growing older
And there ain't no way to change where we have been