Find My Way

Everydays a new day equipped with another set of problems
Trying hard to solve em while falling sabotaged by two faced golems
Feel like I'm running in place in disgrace never making progress
Lying to the man in the mirror unfamiliar so dishonest
Acting like I'm on the right path but in fact I know I wasn't
Stabbed many times in the back been attacked by knives by the dozen
Aint no loving got accustomed to struggling for nothing
The fighting and fussing always something adding to the suffering
Seems like every corner I turn got to learn another pattern
Is it a mistake to scrape to escape this bottomless cavern
Been on this road all alone ain't seen home in forever
Hoping things get better with a letter like finding buried treasure
But I can't find the right path to travel leg in a shackle
Can't sit in the saddle waiting for battle don't even trust my shadow
Hear the angels calling i think their stalling me
Wondering how could it all be so damn hard to see

Everywhere I turn I see more walls and they're closing in
Trying hard to win so difficult when you're not the chosen men
Living life of privilege an image is not legitimate
Fighting against myself and good health the village idiot
Running in circles endless hurdles forever chasing dreams
The trash encountered on the right path ain't always what it seems
Behind every locked door is another stairway to nothing
Trying to find something worth loving about this ugly duckling
Nothing was ever easy believe me never could catch a break
Adding weight to the world on my shoulders how much more can I take
It's never-ending life unfriending constantly descending
Trying to keep my eyes on the prize so I just keep pretending
That it's not affecting me or my mental health only need myself
Crumbling under the weight of my thoughts where can i turn for help
Emotionally disguising and dying approaching midlife
Breaking's hard to tell like a spell at the stroke of midnight