Trial Periods (Side Effects)

Come back to life when the sun kicks in,
Don't wipe my eyes where the dark has been,
And i'll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned,

Until it's over,
Until i'm headed back to fine again.

Stabs hurt harder than words – sometimes.
I try to keep that in mind.
The pen is sharper than the words it writes,
And the marks they leave fade in half as much time.

Let's drift away, and back, away, and back again.
I've only lost enough just to hold on.
I might look forward to relief but not the end.
I've missed enough, just not all that went wrong.

But earth to god, we're running out of sun.
And it's far too long a trip back to square one.

I'm pulling out of the dive I took.
I'm unfamiliar, so tell me where to look.
I'm hanging off the wall on it's weakest hook
Until someone dares to tell me i've done good.

The lack of words can clear your vision.
Apologies are too far-fetched to try, but listen,
So far, i'm broken, that's a given.
But i'm not the only one who's lost my mind.

I'll pay through blood and sweat and tears much more than time somehow.
Rest assured i've done my best to clear the haze.
I'm only as upright as me fuel supplies allow.
My blinds are shut since i've seen better days.

But, earth to god, i'm asking you again,
Could you turn the lights back on inside my head?

I'm pulling out of the dive I took.
I'm unfamiliar, so tell me where to look.
I'll be straightening my hopes out under stacks of unused books
Until my fever-dreams are understood.

I'll come back to life when the sun kicks in.
And i'll wipe my eyes where the dark has been.
And i'll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned.

So let's start over,
Until i'm headed back to fine again.