Endless Shame

California seems so far, you've lost a drunk in the local bar,
And the girl you want is dancing away.
Well honey I can be your man if I get some money and I have a plan,
So in your arms I can always stay.
I gained some weight and stayed out late,
And ran from the problems I just made,
Make us no longer us.
While the media's trying to prophesize,
That I'll be the next Jesus Christ,
When all I want to be is Judas.
Do you want to be my lover,
Or the one who runs for cover when I'm drunk,
Forget my name.
Girl if I make you cry,

I'll surely want to die,
From all the guilt and endless shame.
I come from the kingdom of liquor bottles,
Where everybody has a problem that just can't be named.
And every night I have to hide,
From the demons that are inside my head,
And play their games.
Well do you think I am a God,
Or someone I am not,
Cause I am obsessed with you.
Well I am the one and only,
The only one who's lonely,
Look to Christ for some truth.
Well the devil seems to have his hands,
Wrapped around our little romance,
That I drink away.
Well I'll promise honey that I'll change,
And I'm not that deranged,
I'll do anything to make you stay.