Cameo

You ever just lose it
you ever feel that
nothing we're doing worth a damn
all of these dreamers
all of these believers
none of it count for anything
the big prank man plays on man

Lately the world makes me unhappy
kids staring in the tv screens
nobody wants to admit they're lonely
maybe (they) don't know what lonely means

That's what it is though all of us alone
all of us watching our little shows
I'm star of my movie everything I see
into the script and on it goes
is your little cameo
I'll go out walking late at evening
I'll try to focus on my breath
most of the time though I end up running
like I'm being chased inside my head

And every day the very same
then nothing wages at the gates
I see the sun fill up the sky
and later wide wrapped down to waste
and then the bond to lead the hand
and then the scold behind the face
this is not who I am this is what I became

I count my blessings
a house in all our things
the girl of my dreams
that's now my wife
but if I'm so lucky if I'm so happy
why do I lie awake at night
why am I angry all the time
I look in the eyes of people strolling
in the supermarket aisles
today I passed two young girls laughing
I imagined their blood running on the tiles...