Hindsight

As I drift on the water, a voice calling to me had said
"Sail into the harbor, cast down your nets and follow Me"
First of all the chosen, I saw the raising of the dead
It must be my devotion, for I stood alone upon that sea

So I walked on the tempest, I saw the waves below my feet
It's clear I was the bravest, to meet the stranger on the deep
I am the rock on which to build this land
Got the keys to the kingdom, I'm at His right hand
I was the first among the chosen, the boldest in devotion
Walking out upon the ocean, what else could I need?

I'm well-versed in forgiveness, as many as seven times repeat
In service was I fearless; attack my king, my blade you'd reap
(What else could I need?)

Haunting my reflection, a bitter thought comes to my mind
I made known my objection, about how You had come to die
You said my thoughts were of the devil's kind
I was opposed to Your kingdom, and I should get behind
But You were talking like You're cursed,
already laying in Your deathbed
Maybe somehow You were misled.
May it never be!

You said I would fall away before the rooster's crow would end
To my shame did I betray, deny You as my closest friend
I'm singing, heart is hardened
I'm sleeping in the garden
I'm swinging swords I'm guarding my kingdom and my stardom

Am I different than Judas? For I betrayed the kindest friend
I'm all out of excuses, with nothing to make my amends
O Love! O Love! O Love, You bottomless abyss!
O Love! O Love! O Love, You bottomless abyss!

How tender You had spoken
though I betrayed the kindest friend
Faithful in devotion, such a love I cannot comprehend

Oh when You found me I was broken,
from the words that I had spoken,
but You were faithful in devotion.
You remembered me!