The Hardest Part

I'm trying to wrap my head around this
It's just too dark to see the light

I've never given a thought to a life
Without you here by my side
Everything made sense
Like how to face the world
And give it all we had

I'm counting days
I can't remember the last time I saw your face
I can only hope you found what saved you
From all the heartache and pain

I've never given a thought to a life
Without you here by my side
Everything made sense
Like how to face the world
And give it all we had

And I feel so numb
How long has it been?
It feels like forever
And I can't face the light
I don't want to face the light
But I know you're gone
And I can't change that

And I know it's time
To allow myself to feel
Feel the warmth in my heart

What were the last words that I said?
I can't remember
Did I tell you I loved you?
Maybe if I scream loud enough, you'll hear me
Can you hear me?

The smile on my face can't fill my empty heart
Hold your breath, count to three
I'm screaming my lungs out
Oh God, I've missed you
And I thank you for making me, making me feel alive

Oh God, I've missed you
What were the last words that I said?
I can't even remember
You were my closest friend and I thank you
For making me love everything alive

(Hold your breath, count to three) I am screaming, can you hear me?
(Take my hand, I can feel it too) hold your breath count to three
(There's a place better than here) what were the last words I said?
(Close your eyes, it'll all be over soon)

Hold your breath, count to three
Take my hands, I can feel it too
There's a place better than here
Close your eyes, it'll all be over soon