Under and Out

It's been so many years now, honestly
That I've been living this out
It's been so many years, honestly
I'm under and out

And I've been
Ready to end it all
Ready to say goodbye
Ready to leave this all behind me
It's funny to hear the words
Coming out of my own mouth
Telling my story that
Nobody gives a damn about

It's easy to feel this lonely
When you got nobody
You feel you're willing to let in
And fill this hole that leaves you empty
My friends are blind to it
My mommas not catching on
My brother don't know a single thing
About it at all
Sometimes I wake up thinking
I wish it had been tonight
Wishing I'd stayed asleep
Then everything will be alright
I'd be burden on you
Promise that I'd go quietly
No need for the funeral
'Cause no one would even come to see me

It's been so many years now, honestly
That I've been playing this out
It's been so many years now, honestly
I think I'm ready to bow it out

I've tried so hard
To make this world feel warm
But it feels so cold
And my heart has felt happiness
My love has been meaningless
My head has felt strong
And I've never known how to hold it long

I tried to love somebody
I tried to hold her hand
But holding her hand don't help me
When she's with another man
I tried to drink my sorrow
I've tried to exercise
I tried to kiss my wounded parts before metastasising
And now I'm left here with
No choice to make, you see
I'll fall with autumn leaves
'Cause that's my only remedy
I'll bee no burden on you
Promise that I'll go quietly
Just hope when I go
You'll all be left with memories

It's been so many years now, honestly!
I've been living this out
It's been so many years now, honestly!
I think I'm ready to bow it out

Regretting lot of things
From spreading tears to buying rings
I'll remember life as everything
I'm not capable to be
I've travelled through the world
I've loved strangers
I kissed the girl I loved
And this is my goodbye
To that life I'll leave behind
It's been so many years now
It's been too many years now
I'm under and out



Credits
Writer(s): Philip Swatridge
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