The First One

Astrid S

I know I shouldn't say what I'm 'bout to say
'Cause it's never okay to go and bring your exes up
No matter what
My second and my third, I hate they got the worst of me
They don't deserve the way that I was treating 'em
I'd lead them on

When I knew what I was doing
I was stupid, I was ruined, I was healing
But the healing never happened
And I'm sorry that I did you wrong

To all the ones I ever loved
Never let you in enough
Not your fault, I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
To all the ones I ever hurt
Always knew it wouldn't work
Not your fault, I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
There ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah

I just can't forget some of the words he said
The memories in my bed keep coming back again
Like daggers in my mind, yeah
They draw blood all night, yeah

Yeah, I know what I've been doing
Running through 'em just to try and catch a feeling
But the feeling never happened
And I'm sorry that I did you wrong

To all the ones I ever loved
Never let you in enough
Not your fault I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
To all the ones I ever hurt
Always knew it wouldn't work
Not your fault I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
There ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah, yeah
No, there ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah, yeah

Promise that it kills
Every time you send
A picture from a place
You and I used to go
I hope you know

To all the ones I ever loved
Never let you in enough
Not your fault I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
To all the ones I ever hurt
Always knew it wouldn't work
Not your fault I gave too much
To the first one, to the first one
There ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah, yeah
No, there ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah, yeah
No, there ain't nothing I can do about it, yeah, yeah
(No, there ain't nothing I can do about it) Yeah, yeah