Electric

It's 4am and I am sitting on the edge of the bed
With the last words of our conversation on rotation in my head
And the meds are too low dosage maybe cuz we keep losing focus
And I keep losing sleep and wishing I hadn't said what I said

But it's hopeless emotion took over and spoke the words in anger
In an exchange the same as when pandora opened her container
But I can defend you from danger the way the ocean serves the sailor
So just know whatever floats your boat it don't concern the anchor

We were young in parking lots we were young and making jokes
We were young and making messes mostly as a way to cope
With that front-facing camera flipped back to catch the glimmer in our hopes
No ropes holding back when you asked with that

Admission of missive I missed it
And this particular tidbit of misery is so delicious and exquisite
Intermission inhibited with a wish to bridge the distance
And a list of each suspicion one ellipsis can elicit

Wish in one hand drunk text in the other
Then in the morning regret everything you confessed to each other
But he's never impressed unless you successfully suffer
Cuz the light leaving your eyes is like a sunset in the summer

Ignore the whats and wheres and whens and hows and whys and whos
There are ways of finding out for sure a house is fireproof
So what am I to you? a guide? a muse? and what if I refuse?
And shut myself within this shell you held so tight no might could pry it loose

But I was never more than a distraction
And every form of interaction was more from boredom than from passion
The courtship was imagined i solved the human Rubik's cube
When all I ever wanted was to know what I could do for you

I give you life
Our love is electric