Beautiful Fall

Girl, I gave everything that I could give you
I made a mistake, but I'm wondering, I love you
You love me, give me one good reason you don't wanna fuck with me
You say it's not me
You say you need time, I gave enough of it
Cover to cover, I duck, still I suffer
We fight and fight, I think I'm in love with it

Sad but we cover it, yeah, I discovered it
But back to back when the thunder hits
Look me straight in my eyes
There's a layer of lies and we're hiding under it
No in between when I show you my pain, then you're making fun of it
Hard from the start took my heart, now you run with it
Guess you are nothing at all but just dominant

And that's not a compliment
How the fuck can we survive in this mess?
You are my drug and my life, so I can't kick the habit
I would die, so instead I keep using it wrong
Got to keep moving along
You tryna keep proving me wrong, but I fall deep use when you're gone
Girl, you don't got a clue what you make me feel like
I feel high and low at the same time
It's beautiful, and it's fucked up
You know I try

But every time I try, you tell me no
Tell me where to go
Got high when I was low
Burn it in the snow
Tried to let it go, but the pain only grows
So, I'm hiding it below, man, I guess I'm on my own

Damn, I'm on my own but that feeling is wonderful
Got used to the pain, baby, this shit nothing new
Been through enough for the both of us
Still, I don't know the words to make it up with you
Damn, found myself and got lost in you

And girl, you told me everything's possible
You told me to be unstoppable
You was the one who was there when I had nothing at all
And back then I thought it was logical
You was there with me
But now look back at myself

With questions like, "Why did I fuck it up?"
Tell you my chronicle
Blame me for all of your problems
Your pain and his road full of obstacles

So, down the road I go
With nothing left but my memories
Think now I know
Why this hope I had could change
The way I was looking at these things
Now I'm just holding on
And girl, you made me think about it
You emptied all the bottles I was drinking out

It's amazing
How you change me
But it scares me at the same time
You say you hate me
But you love me
And that's the same the other way around

So, stop bringing me down
I know that I've made mistakes
But the love that I'm feeling now
Got me hoping time will change
'Cause I know we all ain't perfect
But you're as close as I could hope for
So, I tried to make it work
But now it's time I let it go, uh

But every time I try, you tell me no
Tell me where to go
Got high when I was low
Burn it in the snow
Tried to let it go, but the pain only grows
So, I'm hiding it below, man, I guess I'm on my own