Moment of Clarity

Just had a moment of clarity
19, how could I want any woman to marry me
I don't know myself apparently
Still think sharing feelings embarrassing
Just moved out of mama house
So why am I already worried bout parenting
Stop believing in me
Fear of becoming too arrogant
Looking at people just living
Me? I was calling them ignorant
Just cause they like some shit
I ain't that into it
He who cast the first stone be without sin
If I stay the same Ima be without friends
Be without love, mama say it take a man to admit when he wrong
Lately that's what I been focused on
Instead of getting hoes and getting on
All here for getting right and living life
Can't get stuck on the past and what I didn't have or didn't like
This summer took a good look in the mirror
And the problem's never been any clearer
Not saying I'm the bad guy, not saying that I'm always good
Came from my mama dog
I don't answer no more when they say what hood
But it's love when I'm in the hood
Still get a little hate too
Still get dirty looks in the burbs, Land Rover when I roll through
Best thing to do is be yourself
It's never easy but it holds true
Learned to love me nothing wrong with it
Chubby nigga but I'm long-winded
Ima keep spitting til yall get it
I gotta grind til we all get it
Jam my own shit to remind me that I'm with it
Come from a family that prays, Alfre Woddard
Yall boys keep balling, I'd rather be John Wooden
Yall boys could be Drew Gooden
Ima be everything they say I couldn't
That's a hard pill to swallow for some
I got more goals than to count up the sum
Or lay up get high and just stare at the sun
Shout out my pops for abandon his son
Rich but I'm broke, don't need phantoms to stunt
I don't need chains and bandannas to stunt
My skin is enough to get shot by a gun
I'm dead if I stay, dead if I run
Shawty finally chose me over him
But I dropped her cause I'm second to none
Hookah smoke blowing all out my lungs
Crazy, shit you do to stop feeling numb
Watched a good friend go from 2 years strong with her man
To doing weed, alcohol, and the xans
Her squad cheering her on like they fans
She say I'm lame cause I'm not in the stands
But I'm not her friend?
Good guy Kerry with the big heart again
Mama say that this shit gonna
Sad thing is I know she right
Sad thing is I don't really mind
I don't feel like I done lived life
But I just keep going like
Let me help you and let me help you
And it was fuck me, but you get help too
They forget all the shit that you did do
Cause of one thing that fell through
Let me tell you

Moments like these could make a man
Moments like these could break a man
It's crazy how far life'll take a man
Pushing me to go places I won't take it man
Cross got me leaning, I take it in
Know where I'm from to know where I stand
Rather make it out than to make amends
Lately I ain't really into making friends
Lately I ain't into talking bout it
Been there, did that, won't go there again
Who do I have in my corner again
Who do I have in my corner
Who do I have in my

Who do I have in my corner again
Niggas don't wanna see you win
Circle just getting smaller again
So much on my mind, keep all of it in
Shawty told me I was tripping
Cause I told her how I'm feeling
That's what I get for being open
They want a nigga who cold and shit
Sorry I'm one with emotions
People ain't down like they say they are
Guess I'm bout to do my own shit
Can't forget what the goals is
Simone Biles with the whole shit
Usain Bolt with the whole shit
Always talking shit but don't know shit
Yall can keep that hoe shit
Always flexing but don't own shit
Shoutout mama daddy, where ya own shit
This that boy nobody knows shit
Greatest story never told shit
You should watch who you sleep on
You should watch who you sleep on