Lost Boy

I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing

You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go

I've lost my mind
Trying to find a moment in time
A place where I can reconnect
When I'm no longer held against my will
Shackled to these memories I have of you
I've lost my fucking mind
Searching for the reasons why I wasn't good enough
How could I be so blind?
After all the fucking shit you put me through

And now I'm six feet underground
And I'm starting to drown
Beneath the weight of every mistake that I've ever made
Struggling to pick up pieces
As I claw my way back to the surface
Will I ever be myself again?
So fucking tell me
Will I ever feel that safe again?

I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing
Was I just another trophy on your shelf?
You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go

You only have one life to live
So make it count
There's always room for second chances
Just gotta learn to pick yourself back up

This is the path that I've chosen
And I refuse to be one of the broken
A generation of damaged souls

We are the lost
We are the broke and unsettled
Hide behind the words you won't say to me
Try and erase memories I can't escape
The reason for all my hate?
Forgiveness is for the weak
A plague planted within my mind
The feeling hollows me
But I'll sleep soundly at night
Knowing karma will be bittersweet

We are lost
And I don't ever think we'll be found
And now I know how it feels
To be so close to the edge
I'm afraid that I'm never coming back
Unless I can learn to forgive
But I can never forget
I tried to forgive you
I swear I've tried
But I've got nothing left inside to give

I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing
Was I just another trophy on your shelf?
You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go

I've lost my mind
I feel the hate inside
It's growing deeper everyday
The last piece of me dies
You watch it fall and rot away