Let's Be Honest

You'd think that I would learn
To hold my tongue
Once and for all.

But I'm growing old
And still running off my mouth
Like I can't get enough.

But save your mercy for the lost.
I don't have time for these regrets.
And don't you dare remind me of the cost
'Cause how the hell could I forget?

I've gotten good
At pulling people in
And pushing everyone away.

I've shouted words
And said hateful things
That no one decent should say.

But save forgiveness for the weak.
I've made it this far on my own.
I'm not the man of your dreams
But more like the sinner that you stone.

God only knows the darker side of me.
The pieces of my heart I don't want you to see.
Heaven forbid you find out who I am
'Cause if you knew the truth I'm terrified you'll leave.

I've got to change or I'll die alone.
I don't deserve all the grace that you've displayed.
I'll nail you to the cross again 'cause once was not enough.
My sinful heart feels way too gone now to ever be saved.

So keep me close to where you are
'Cause God knows I'm prone to stray.
Write my name upon your heart
And swear you'll always keep me safe.