Before I Let You Go...

If I ever make it happen
Would you ever come and see me
Or would you only check for me
When I'm all on the TV
They say when you lose your friends
That's when you know you're getting older, believe me
And I ain't f*cking with nobody, y'all can leave me
I only learnt one thing this year and that's that
Ain't nobody really ever gonna need me
They don't care whether you play your part
They don't play fair
They only care about what's theirs
And if I ever, let you down
If I ever let you down

I was the kid with all As at 17 right
And then they didn't let me in
And that don't feel right
They must feel a type of way
About the way I hid in plain sight
They sleeping on me I'll just settle for my dreams
Goodnight!
Mama told me it all happens for a reason
But I don't believe it anymore I lost the meaning
I'm losing faith in mother nature
Like this ain't the season
Raining in the summer? Yeah I'm home
You couldn't make believe it
The world ain't never gonna change
It's just a cruel thang, Errthang Korrupt
I'm talking way before the Cube thang
If even Jesus didn't make it, nor did Hussein
I don't get it we all the same
So f*ck are you saying?
I wish I never had another mood swing
You ever felt like you just heard the f*cking moon sing?
Jump up in the sky and try to climb up on a moon ring?
But mama karma want the rock
Got her a mood ring
She took our girls away
I heard it on that news thang
I never check it but I had a little news fling
The USA came in today
I don't know who wins or who loses
I'll probably be sleeping through the whole thang
Clutching on my head
'Cause beggars hands all on my window
But if I drop the bill
They'd all come running through my window
But one day I'mma win, I just don't know when though
One day I'mma quit but I keep blowing on that endo
It's just what my n*ggas into
They might blow it till the end though
I hope I don't lose anybody but sometimes I think so
I just hope the homie wrote a will like
Why you gotta sniff yo?
Hope he quit it, told him quit it!
But deep down don't think he will though
He ain't got the will to
'Cause that snow is whiter than the winter
He said our time is coming, wait on it
This time I just don't want to
'Cause today he might be here
Tonight he might be dead
I don't know where the f*ck his head is at
I don't know where he went to, what he went through
If he dips again still won't know where to head to
Tried to get through to him
But scared that won't be helpful
'Cause what if I just tip him over the edge
That would be hellful
F*ck I look like tryna tell his mama
"Be strong, it's all mental"
Had a dream she came for me
Yeah I'm the one you wanna step to
Still a little kid
Can't forgive myself for giving into all the peer pressure
Thinking 'bout the things that he was into
All the things the n*gga been through
The things he was getting into
All the chicks he was giving it to
Getting it in, yeah getting it into
She said I'm new around the block
I'll find some sh*t I been through
That's what I told myself
But I ain't been through sh*t
Sh*t it's just what it is, so f*ck it
I'll vent about the fact that I ain't got no sh*t to vent to
I wish I didn't always live inside this bubble
On a hill or in a muddle
Am I in or is it f*ck you
Can I live a little bit?
Sh*t I'm just dying to live
But here's a joint that you can die to
Light another L this is a joint that you can light to
Just talking to myself
This ain't a n*gga I can lie to

If I ever make it happen
Would you ever come and see me
Or would you only check for me
When I'm all on the TV
They say when you lose your friends
That's when you know you're getting older believe me
And I ain't f*cking with nobody, y'all can leave me
I only learnt one thing this year and that's that
Ain't nobody really ever gonna need me
They don't care whether you play your part
They don't play fair
They only care about what's theirs
And if I ever, let you down
If I ever let you down

I was the kid that was too shy to talk to people
The kid that never left the crib
Just didn't feel the need to
Thought about ending it, but then I lost the needle
Went and dropped it on a record
Found somebody I could speak to
Well so to speak, I mean I'm talking to myself
'Cause ain't nobody ever gave a f*ck
Why would they need to?
Sh*t, I mean like me too! I used to give a f*ck
But ain't nobody with you
Unless you giving them a buck
F*ck! But f*ck it
Who makes a show and still comes late too?
Venue ain't giving a f*ck, they don't pretend too
What? It's only 10 to!
I know I came a little late
I know that's that sh*t people hate
Can I explain? At least attempt to?
Had some other shit up on my plate had to attend to
No, didn't intend to but my n*ggas going mental
He really trippin', everybody think he mental
But while I was getting turnt he went to church
I wish I went too
And little bro don't spend too long in ivy towers
'Cause when you come back down?
They don't want those flowers!
They say you ain't ours
You spent too many hours
Talking rich with the man
With all his rich man powers, you coward!
I told myself that when I turned 21
I would tell my big sister how I clouded up my mental
Yeah can you hear me?
Yeah that's what I was up to, I was up to no good
But you're the one I still look up to forgive me

If I ever make it happen
Would you ever come and see me
Or would you only check for me
When I'm all on the TV
They say when you lose your friends
That's when you know you're getting older believe me
And I ain't f*cking with nobody, y'all can leave me
I only learnt one thing this year and that's that
Ain't nobody really ever gonna need me
They don't care whether you play your part
They don't play fair
They only care about what's theirs
And if I ever, let you down
If I ever let you down

I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why

I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why

I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why he keep blessing me
I don't know why, I don't know why, I don't know why

See I just wanna do what I was made to
Not what I was made to
That would make me hateful
So I'mma study hard
Screw what all you guys do
I only need one guide, and I'm that guy too
I guess God too, but damn how long he finna hide?
I had faith but lost it quick, it's like I planned to
Still tryna find a plan B, at least I plan to
Still tryna scheme so made a beat that I can plan to
I'm gonna keep working harder than these mans do
Aim for cloud 9, I got a itch like Mandzuk-
I swear I'll never be the fall guy like Randy Mantooth
I swear in one year, once I get outta here
I'm gonna blow and be the greatest MC
Just like my dad do
Study classics yeah I'll do it 'til the end too
But when we graduate I'll hit the stage for Last Class 2
And yeah I killed this joint, I had to

This is something you can ride to
This is something you can vibe to
Just walk with me my n*gga
Don't need no sunroof
What you been up to?

If I ever make it happen
Would you ever come and see me
Or would you only check for me
When I'm all on the TV
They say when you lose your friends
That's when you know you're getting older believe me
And I ain't f*cking with nobody, y'all can leave me
I only learnt one thing this year and that's that
Ain't nobody really ever gonna need me
They don't care whether you play your part
They don't play fair
They only care about what's theirs
And if I ever, let you down
If I ever let you down

I said f*ck them other n*ggas 'cause I ride for my n*ggas
F*ck them other n*ggas 'cause I ride for my n*ggas
F*ck them other n*ggas I'd ride for my n*ggas
I'd die for my n*ggas man f*ck them other n*ggas

I'm always ever mindful
Just tryna keep your mind full