Chaos

I feel like I just woke up at the
Bottom of the ocean for the very first time
Took a breath of water and I'm drowning just fine
Look up at the surface and refracted sunlight
But the more that I climb

Feels like I'm falling further into
Places where the nothingness and chaos collide
I think I've come to grips that there's no way I'll survive
The last thing I remember is your autumn brown hair
I can see you down there
I can see you down

I can see you down there I can see you down
I can see you down there

(I said I said)
My head keeps pounding and these drugs kicked in they just won't work
(You said you said)
Just keep on drowning cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt

I keep my eyes wide open and I'm seconds
From the surface as the currents converge
My hands can feel the air but still my body's submerged
A cold Atlantic tide immobilizes my
Nerves and I don't know what you heard

But when I woke up screaming I was
Desolate and desperate a horrible sight
Abandoned on an unfamiliar shore in the night
I'm lost inside the ocean no one ever found where
I can see you down there
I can see you down

(Days grow older, nights get colder, the sky seems closer now)

I can see you down there I can see you down
I can see you down there

I said I said my head keeps pounding and
These drugs kicked in they just won't work

You said you said just keep on drowning
Cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things hard

I said I said my head keeps pounding

You said you said just keep on drowning

I said I said my head keeps pounding and
These drugs kicked in they just won't work

You said you said just keep on drowning
Cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt

I wanna make things hard

I wanna make things hard

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things harder on myself

I wanna make things hard