Know What I Mean, Jellybean?

By then, I'd had enough
I couldn't stand to watch you die
So I died first
That's how I survived

Now I can't feel the ground
Tremble beneath my feet
And I won't make a sound while
This town crumbles into the sea

Now it's been years
And even after all this time
I'm still here
There's simply nothing inside

And when I held your head
And whispered into you ear
"It's okay to leave now
There is nothing left for you here"
I knew I had nothing left to fear

It's not hard to keep it inside
A feeling so hard to describe
I don't know if that's okay
Gonna do it anyway
Do it anyway

Yeah, it hurt
It's almost something else now
I cried so much
I thought I might drown

I'm out of tears, I'll make no concessions
Through all these years, I've learned a lesson
Everything I love will die
In due time

It's not hard to keep it inside
A feeling so hard to describe
I don't know if that's okay
I fucking do it anyway
Do it anyway

I'll fucking do it anyway