Shallows

All the feelings lock me out
Don't want to feel it again and again
I can hear the voices loud
Cannot forget the scars remain

Lie!
I never saw myself so clear

So why do you chasten me, testing me again?
So many words, but nothing left to say

Feels like I'm lost in the shallows
All my life I was doomed to fail
Since I escaped from the gallows
I carry my cross through the valley of faith

Why am I attracted to failure?
I don't want to carry the weight
Why does it hurt so bad?
To forgive myself
To never forget

I want it all, I want it all
I want it all to disappear
With every single step you take
The past will guide the way
I want it all, I want it all
I want the pages to be clear
And when I wrote my chapters new
There's nothing left to say
Nothing left to say

And I keep moving on and on
To forget, just to bury my past
Never paused, never though that I was wrong
No remorse 'til the bitter end

Why I wanted doomed to fail?
I don't wanna carry the weight
Why does it hurt so bad?
To forgive myself
To never forget

I want it all, I want it all
I want it all to disappear
With every single step you take
The past will guide the way
I want it all, I want it all
I want the pages to be clear
And when I wrote my chapters new
There's nothing left to say
Nothing left to say

I want it all to disappear
I want it all to disappear
I want it all to disappear
I want it all to disappear
I want it all to disappear

I won't ever take it

I can feel the change
Deep inside of myself
No!

I want it all, I want it all
I want it all to disappear
With every single step you take
The past will guide the way
I want it all, I want it all
I want the pages to be clear
And when I wrote my chapters new
There's nothing left to say