Half in Half Out

Scared to sleep I don't wanna go to bed
My mind's unkind with the road ahead
Heartbeat racing for the life I'm chasing
Another day gone, another day dead
All desires that are in front of me
Smirking, laughing and mocking me
I wanna know and now I wanna see
All the roads that are in front of me
'Cause I'm half in, half out
Trying to make it all count
I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is...
(Scared of the road)
Ahead of me, will i get there before they see
The sadness and my insecurities
(Afraid of what I don't know)
And all I know, is I don't know any step I see in front of me
(What do I have to show for when I go?)

'Cause I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is
I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is...
Lying awake face down in my bed
My mind's unkind with the words being said
The rules I'm told don't sit right with me
Can somebody give me some sympathy?
I'm not looking for your praise
At least one of these days
Can somebody tell me that they feel the same?
That we're not alone
It's the nail seated throne
We sit ourselves on
Putting more in our homes
When you're half in, half out
Trying not to freak yourself out
I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is...
Shout, just shout
(Stare down the road)
Life's a juggling act, that's a fact
Do I sell my soul, and give up on the craft?
(Not letting go of what I know)
Ups and downs, not as easy as it sounds
But I want more, so it's time to adapt
(The bitter hold and control on my torn soul)

I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is
I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is shout
All I wanna do is...
Shout

This next verse is too quick for me
To explain my own sick mentality
That about sums up my life
Ironically
I wanna do what I like
But that's selfish right?
'Cause no-one really cares about your personal plight
You should play your own part in society
But what about me and why can't I be
Happy finding others just the same as me
'Cause don't you see you're not the only one
Who's sick of the rat race and wanting some fun
A life with a purpose a life you've made count
Other than chasing other bigger bank accounts
Sure some is nice
But it's like a bell curve
A lot ain't alright
When you're whole life's for work

I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is
I'm half in, half out
All I wanna do is shout
All I wanna do is...
Not letting go, of what I know
I'm not letting go
All I wanna do is shout