Nobody's Poet

Una mirada no dice nada
Y al mismo tiempo lo dice todo
Si un da me faltas, no ser nada
Y al mismo tiempo lo ser todo

It was August 27, 2016
If I say too much, please forgive me
I can't hold it in, that was part of your advice
So I didn't think twice about what to reveal

Has its time and place
So at first I didn't want to understand why you walked away
Cut off my ways with no direction
Never sought help, sick of the lies it would tell

And leave you in the dark with half stories so cryptic and vague
It's okay, don't worry about it
So the silence would sustain
Now I'm thinking back on all those car rides

I was a little too passive to avoid fights
And little did I know, just wanted to see
What was on my mind to address the issue
So it reoccurred and would continue

Till one day I finally lost it
Throwing my glasses and nearly hit you
Yelling, don't fucking touch me
Now there's no excuse for a short fuse

Any sort of anger is misused
So I don't blame you
There was some logic towards my music and I didn't want to hear it
Question me, I'd get offended

By any little quip or joke
My ears blew smoke, we were overwhelmed by the stress
And expecting more, not less
I figured you thought I was giving my best

So you'd realize the time I lacked
And I wouldn't invest
Throwing my life away was an educated guess
Not rocket science when I shot my budget and my finance

No job, so I sat on my ass
As a college dropout
Taking the wrong route
Maybe I should've told you the truth as it was intended

When I was academically suspended
Then maybe I could've prevented the way it had all inevitably ended
And now that I'm nobody's poet
If you happen to notice, even when it seems

Blurred and unfocused, maybe unheard
As I wrote this, possibly receiving
Or sending no replies
It's just my intentions

I want you to recognize
I'll say it again
And now that I'm nobody's poet
If you happen to notice, even when it seems

Blurred and unfocused, maybe unheard
As I wrote this, possibly receiving
Or sending no replies
It's just my intentions

I want you to recognize
No replies
And now I say
The one that got away

You utter without a stutter, don't let me be
Something you're right told me
The future lying ahead
You couldn't love someone who was dead

No emotion of dread, no tears to be shed
At each other's neck, we should breathe for a sec
Calm and collect, then reconnect
But it all accumulates as burdens on our plates

We argue and bicker, are you a part of the picture
Or do you feel stagnant in the image
Or the fact that it's no longer my business
Well I guess you're right, in this endless fight

Making calls in the night just to hear your voice
But we can't go back after that certain choice
No
But I'm delusional, I don't believe that

Nor can see that, on purpose
As my thoughts began to surface
Scraping with claws from the void
A feeling that couldn't be destroyed, just suppressed

And silenced from uncertainty
Maybe if I had listened on August 23
Instead of playing victim with this
What was me, but it's all the small things that add up

Little by little I'd self-destruct
Truly unaware till now
As I write this down
Hurting you more than you ever did back to me

Revealing that it was me, the true
Villain of this nobody's poet's story
Too bad
Sorry to cut it

And now that I'm nobody's poet
If you happen to notice
Even when it seems flirted, unfocused
Maybe unheard as I wrote this

Possibly receiving or sending no replies
It's just my intentions
I want you to recognize
I'll say it again

I'll say it again
And now that I'm nobody's poet
If you happen to notice
Even when it seems flirted, unfocused

Maybe unheard as I wrote this
Possibly receiving or sending no replies
It's just my intentions
I want you to recognize

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