Death Dreams

Persuaded to stay again.
All I feel is the same old ache in my head.
Unaware of the confusion, the delusion.
Neck tie, a thin line.
I get up on the chair next to my bed side.
Do I fear death? It won't stop.
I can feel it calling me under my breath.

You fed off my pity, my pity ran out.
I searched through my mind, in my mind was no doubt.
Through my youth like a cavity that I wish to black out.
I was living a life I was never about.

I know I promised but this has to be said.
This bitch has got me feeling so damn brain dead.
A slit across her throat will bring peace in my head.
14 months, too long I had to pretend.

Misery and lack of sleep drives me to insanity.
Misery and lack of sleep drives me to insanity.

Trapped in my head again.
Back sinking in the deep end.
A place for people just like me.
Hidden from where your eyes cant see.

Redirected my attention. I made myself into a better person.
Rebuilt bridges I once destroyed now I'll try and mend them.
Got rid of all the tension.
Spoke all the words I never got to mention.

This is my final plea.
This is my destiny.
Take... death let me take her life.