Nights I Don't Remember

The nights I don't remember are the ones that I hold dear
'Cause the ones I dig up in my mind still fill my heart with fear
I've been fighting senseless battles, I've been calling out your name
That road still leads me into town, but it'll never look the same

And the air was sweet with summer
The college kids were loud
I'd ask but I know the answer
I ain't making anyone proud

The days I hope stay with me are the ones before the storm
When you went without a warning and left all us here to mourn
I sober up by noontime, I hunker out of sight
I worry you rubbed of me, I don't even start a fight

I can hear the crowds on Hawkins
There's a chill back in the air
But with most things that I'm finding
I can't bring myself to care

You were walking through the front door when I knew she'd sent you here
To ease my worried thinking and take away my fear

Now the snow is slowing melting
The days are taking back some light
I think I'll make it through the winter
If I make it through tonight