Days Leave

Running out of fingers to keep track of all my wrongs
Relapse, rebound, rebuild, but still no signs of moving on
I thought they said that time was the healer of all pain
All I see is change, and I just stay the same

I recall a time when that river ran rapid
The sun, it shone so bright on each day I'd inhabit
What's worse is all the time gone by I lost trying to hide
Is the one thing that I keep with me
It keeps me up at night

I can't pretend
That I don't see decline
What about the end
Justifies the means
We're just killing time
As if it won't run out
I can't sit by and just pretend

I broke into that house again
It looks just like we left it
Dust on dirty photographs
Years of being stagnant
It's funny how a time and place transcend when you return
So I wrote a note without a date hoping that you never learn

That I can't pretend
That I don't see decline
What about the end
Justifies the means
We're just killing time
As if it won't run out
I can't sit by and just pretend

All I've ever wanted was a name to tangle in these lines
All they've ever been about is me
And how I can't keep up with life
How the days leave me behind
And all the nights I drank myself to sleep