Disconnect

I feel a disconnect
Deep within my soul
Coz I can't connect
With what should matter most
I feel such strange contempt
For everything I love
Coz I can't be content
Enough's never enough

And the dreams that I've always had
Have never felt so clear
And they've also never felt
As far away as they do here
And I know I should be thankful
For this blessed life I lead
But at times I feel so restless
That I can barely breathe

I feel a disconnect
Deep within my soul
Coz I can't connect
With what should matter most
I feel such strange contempt
For everything I love
Coz I can't be content
Enough's never enough

Maybe it's my Catholic guilt,
Perhaps it's anxiety
All I know is that I just can't
Set and let things be
So I live my life
In a constant state
Of half-happiness
For to me contentedness
Is a step away from being dead

I feel a disconnect
Deep within my soul
Coz I can't connect
With what should matter most
I feel such strange contempt
For everything I love
Coz I can't be content
Enough's never enough

And I've always been afraid of silence
I'm not sure what that means
Something about the nothingness
Tears and scares the hell out of me
So I can't sleep without the distant hum
Of the city's lullaby
Or the sound of another heartbeat
Resting gently by my side

And my mother's always said
I've been like this
Since I was a newborn
In a bassinet
And I'm not sure what that means
I just know that I'm afraid
To find out

And my mother's always said
I've been like this
Since I was a newborn
In a bassinet
And I'm not sure what that means
I just know that I'm afraid
To find out

I feel a disconnect
Deep within my soul
Coz I can't connect
With what should matter most

I feel such strange contempt
For everything I love
Coz I can't be content
Enough's never enough.