Innocent Party

I'm holding back my own hair now
'Cause you don't even want to hold my hand
I can't change the person I was before I met you
I can't change where I've been
But how could I have told you when you didn't want to hear it?
And how can I tell you now if you don't want to listen?

I wasn't always the person that I am now
But I worked so hard to get here
And all I want is for you to hear me out
Or am I singing to a crowd of new deaf ears?
I haven't always been quite this innocent
But I worked so hard to get here
Haven't always been quite this innocent
But I worked so hard to get here

The road to recovery was a long one
In case you want to know
I was reduced to nothing but my shell
While trying to find someone who would love the exterior
Well, I subsequently destroyed my inner self
But how could I have told you when you didn't want to hear it?
And God, I really need this now, so tell me that you'll listen

I wasn't always the person that I am now
But I worked so hard to get here
And all I want is for you to hear me out
Or am I singing to a crowd of new deaf ears?
I haven't always been quite this innocent
But I worked so hard to get here
Haven't always been quite this innocent
But I worked so hard to get here

I fell for a trick and fell into the trap of thief's bed
Who stole what I've known
Corrupted my bones and left me there for dead
He borrowed my body until my skin started rotting through my head
I woke up alone and these jutting bones were all that I had left
I was all that I had left
And I felt totally inept
I tried to use my body to connect
That gaping hole right through my chest
But I was nothing but rotting flesh
No, I was nothing but rotting flesh
Confused, I cried and wept
For God to take me back

I wasn't always the person that I am now
But I worked so hard to get here
I wasn't always the person that I am now
But I worked so hard to get here