No Illusions

Every time I try to write
My words go up in smoke
Every time I try to sing
I lose my voice and choke
When I try to live up to my dreams
To make myself come true, it seems
The truth is a cruel and twisted joke

Someday I'll reconfigure the world
To be the kind of place where I can free my soul
And someday I'll reinvent my life
In a perfect paradise where I am whole
Until then I have to tolerate
Disappointments and confusions
From the day-to-day existence I endure

A life with no illusions

If I could live a million years
I'd still need one more day
If I could be the richest man
I'd still have hell to pay
It's not about security, wealth, or fame
It's about my destiny, and it's a shame
But sometimes I wish it would go away

Come, take refuge in my head
Imagine what an honest view you'd have of my insides
And if I should turn up dead
Imagine what the press would say when you turn up alive

Someday we'll reconfigure the world
To be the kind of place where we can free our souls
And someday we'll reinvent our lives
In a perfect paradise where everyone is whole
Am I a fool for such a fantasy?
Have I succumbed to my delusions?
If it appears I've lost my sanity, rest assured

I've got no illusions